Sunday, August 23, 2009

be by my side

When you look into the eyes of the person you care for and you see in them so much love for you, it is a moment that can invoke many emotions.

I see them in his eyes when he is observing me quietly. When he speaks to me of his feelings towards me.

I wish he will always be by my side. I wish he will be mine always.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

ah, my sweetie pie

I realise that I've been neglecting this blog as of late because I'm too busy updating the other blog. It's not that I've migrated platforms (I never will - I've been using Blogspot since it became famous after Diaryland) or that I've gotten lazy - it's just that I've been at a loss of ideas. Life has become a bit of a routine and my left nostril's feeling itchy but the sneeze just won't come.

After a long, long wait, Detective Conan Vol. 64 is out! Yay!

On the other side of the spectrum, I think the flu is kicking in. Boooo... does that mean H1N1 for me? It had better not be. The Langkawi trip is coming up next week and God forbid that I be forced to live in solitary confinement, wasting the time away by staring at my toenails until they grow a micrometre.

However, if my situation worsens, I will have to take sick leave tomorrow. The left nostril is a bit 'stuck' as it is, pending sneeze. I can also already feel the phlegm stickying up my throat. I tried singing earlier and the voice isn't coming out as smoothly as it should.

Dammit. I hate getting sick.

Sunday, July 26, 2009

back to the usual thing, the RC game

Hi ho, hi ho, I'm home from Sabah and I'm playing my Restaurant City game. Wow. How pathetic. That was the first thing I did upon coming home actually. Went straight to my room, turned on the laptop and I straight away logged into Facebook to play the game.

I must be damned. Or something.


Noel is still in Singapore. I hope he is enjoying himself and I hope he got some nice things for himself. He doesn't seem to shop at all and spending on himself definitely does not include booze and cigarettes. Such a definition does not exist in my world.

Anyway, I sort of miss him. But not really. I wonder why.

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

so long, yet so short

I was reluctant to leave him and immediately upon leaving him, regretted that we had to part ways.

I am depressed as of late.

It's getting harder to wake up in the mornings.

He doesn't like seeing me down and tries his best to encourage me but I'm too tired to think of ways to be cheerful.

I would rather not ride the tide because this tide, it's causing me to feel anxious and agitated. I would, if I had the choice, choose to curl myself into a ball and disappear into oblivion. A better alternative would be to have him hug me tight.

I would rest my cheek on his warm, firm shoulder and inhale the light scent of his perfume and forget about the world.

Can you believe that it's only been three months? We started going out mid-January and only decided to go steady in April. But it feels so, so long owing to the many hours we spend together every day.

All of a sudden, it feels like so many things have happened and that there will be many more to come. We have gone on holiday two months ago. There are two more trips to come and we will be "moving in" together next month.

There are talks of taking the relationship further but that, is still pretty much uncertain. We are waiting to see how it'll go by the end of the year and I hope I'm not being one-sided in this.

Every day, I have a person to fall back on. He is my most special person, you know? He holds my hands and gives me hugs. Whenever he smiles and the corners of his eyes crinkle, I reach out a hand to touch those crinkles. I like resting my cheek on his shoulder.

He'll always catch me, you know. I'm sure of that. He will never let me wander alone. He will always catch up, you know? And I'm certain as certain that he only has eyes for me. I know. I just know because I don't have to worry with him.

But I hope that he will cut down on the cigarettes at least.

Friday, July 17, 2009

an ode to onions

Maybe you would have known by now that I'm totally addicted to that Playfish game on Facebook - Restaurant City. It's all I ever play these days.

But. But!!!

I am frustrated! I am not getting onions on my first friend visits! Onions are not sold at the ingredient market! And nobody is willing to trade me an onion!

And so, the quest for the elusive onion continues.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

my heart is like the raging waves

Twenty minutes ago: My heart was like the raging waves, dark and angry.

Now: I am simmering beneath the surface and my face is a mask of no emotion. The anger is subsiding and a feeling of tiredness creeps into my being.

I don't know if I should be mad at myself or mad at him for today's 'miscommunication', reminiscent of so many such similar incidents from before. I went home in a huff and I feel like kicking myself so hard that maybe I'd get a seizure and just die. Then I wouldn't have to feel as crappy as I do now.

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Monday, July 13, 2009

DaiCon 2009: A good flop?

What makes an event a successful event? Good floor layout? Good sound system? Good attractions? Good crowd? All?

In the case of DaiCon 2009, an ACG (anime, comics and games) event held at MMU Cyberjaya, the only good thing I got to notice in the few hours I was there last Saturday was a better floor layout than what I'd seen at the previous ACG event I had attended which was HELP's C2AGE.

If C2AGE was rated one over five stars, DaiCon's only two.

In other words, not that fantastic.

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