again, again once more

I think you will not understand it when I say (for the umpteenth time) that I am depressed.

I don't like the life I am living today, the life that is full of negativity that whatever shred of a smile I used to have is just so... non-existent.

(The cup of gold topples and falls to its side. It is empty.)

(A noiseless scream rings hollow. It is left unheard.)

(I die. I fall. I die. I die. I die.)

I feel depressed.